HeartBreak

As she walked back home, she took a swift glance to her left and immediately regretted it. Memories hit her like a truck and it all felt like yesterday. It felt like everything was back to normal again. He had just dropped her home, after their romantic day together. It felt like he was still holding her hand and telling her that he loved her. She remembered every crinkle on his face. She remembered how his hair stubbornly refused to lie flat. She remembered how his face would light up at the mention of his hometown. She remembered how he would disappear into a world of his own as he sang and strummed his guitar. She remembered him serenading her. He was her other half and without him, she was just a half. 

But that was when the pain of separation hit her stronger than before. Things were not the same. She would no longer wake up to him, strumming his guitar gently. Every promise they had made, Every feeling she had felt,it was all for nothing now.

She tore her gaze away from their road, before the tears began to form.

AUTOPHOBIA - FEAR OF ISOLATION

As she lay on her bed, a tear drop fell on her pillow. Another day of loneliness, of feeling empty. No one to understand her. No one who's first thought was her. No one....She had been lonely for so long that the silence had started speaking to her. Another tear rolled off her puffy face. She clenched her fists and surrendered herself to the darkness of her world. 

I had the idea to write about this phobia ,after one of my friend's opened up to me about her depression....

One of the major causes of depression is the prickling feeling of loneliness. Our brain is such a catacomb of emotions. When one of these emotions starts to dominate ,Our brain tends to overload.

It's a hard feeling to combat on your own, But it's not impossible. 

The moment you start to feel like you have no body to text or nobody who would just make a spontaneous plan  with you, don't dwell on those thoughts. Switch on some good ole Netflix, make yourself something to snack on. Forget your weekly diets and gorge on some craving. Take a long shower. Pamper yourself to some gifts.

Being alone isn't necessarily a bad thing. You need to understand that people will not always be there for you. There are people who love you and who do care for you, even if they aren't there for you when you are in dire need of them. Or even if you don't have someone like that, It does not matter.

In all those catacombs of your mind, make a choice to unleash the pathway that leads to your happiness chamber. 

Music has always helped me, so has writing about my feelings. Find your passion and allow that to be your friend. 

PHILOPHOBIA-Fear of Love

I think the last time , I wrote about this i was a little kid who didn't have a clue about actually being in love and in reality , I still think ,  I have a lot to learn about it.

All the movies, All the books, nothing can ever give you a wronger picture of love. Aladdin holding his hand out and asking Jasmine , if she trusted him and her jumping into a world of unknown...that is how love is. You jump into a world of surprises with someone who is foolish enough to want to get involved. It's not a beautiful, calm carpet ride but is filled with bumps and storms and even moments where you might get thrown of the carpet and into a scary world. 

I think the most important thing is understanding that love is not the cliche that we all grow up listening to. Love is about understanding and tolerance and respect and its about choosing that one person who you would jump with on a carpet and ride on with, into the dark night.

Most people are afraid of love because they look at it wrongly. The moment you accept the truth, that love like any other emotion is just an emotion, is the day you lose your fear. 

There will be days, when in love you feel like ,you dont understand it anymore. There will be times when you want to just rip out all your hair in frustration , There will be days when you just want to book a taxi and just keep going and not look back even once.

But you know what, in the end of the day, amidst all this pain and suffering , you realise that there is no other person you'd rather suffer with. And thats when you know you're in love.

It's a daunting thought , to be in love, to want to make someone a priority , to want to always be there for someone (no matter how  hurt you are).

In the long scheme of life, Its worth it. Maybe you wont get a Noah and Allie like love story .............But eh, who's comparing?

ECOPHOBIA- FEAR OF HOME

A devastating phobia, one that can drive you to the verge of suicide. Its sad, indeed. Fear of the one place that is actually supposed to strike a chord of warmth in ones heart. In a world where a properly functioning family is a rare thing, majority of children have accepted abuse as a replacement for love. The thing is your childhood is what forms you. And if you've had an abusive childhood, it creates a generation of bitterness and cold hearted humans. Soon, the word love would only be a thing of fairy tales and that of myths...
All i can say is, Don't ever give up. Life may not look to bright. You might be desperate to run away life. Hold on. Hang on. You will find your pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. :)

FRAGAPANOPHOBIA- FEAR OF BIRTHDAYS

I know this is a repost, but it's nearing that time of the year again. 

Most of us are very enthusiastic when it comes to celebrating other people's birthdays.  But as soon as your date nears, you feel your heart sinking and that annoying voice in the back of your head telling you that no one will remember it. So you pretend to be macho and hide all your feelings behind a 'I hate birthdays'. And that sinking feeling that the people who do remember will be exceptionally nice to you and after your birthday, you're back to being a no body. And the constant pressure of social media and all the cute couples who do amazing things for each others birthdays .

After years of experience, I have found a way to battle this Phobia.

Ask yourself  'Does it matter?'. Birthdays are over rated . Everyday is special and you deserve to be treated like a queen, everyday.

Treat yourself. Go out for a bit. Break the birthday stereotype of having to be with so called best friends.

Build your confidence and reduce expectations.

Buy yourself gifts.

And..........most importantly,........................HAVE A PIECE OF CAKE!!

Remember "You determine your happiness.' 

                        CHEROPHOBIA

                                                             -FEAR OF  HAPPINESS

Just when the coffee is not too bitter and the old guy next door does not glare at you like usual and your earphones are not tangled up for once, or basically when the entire world is at peace with you and you feel like for once ,everything seems to be going fine. Thats the time, some people feel a strong wave of nausea and doubt douse them . The fear of being happy can hold you down at so many amazing moments. Its a parasite, eating away at the life of its victim.

Getting over this phobia involves a lot of reasoning with one's self . And maybe you just need to accept that you may not make it to the Milkyway or have that moment you've always dreamt of against the backdrop of Aurora Borealis. :')

ANTHROPOPHOBIA-  FEAR OF HUMAN COMPANY

Ever wondered what people actually mean when they say 'I need some alone time' . The thing is almost all of us have a certain threshold when it comes to tolerating others no matter how much you love them. And when that threshold is crossed, we snap. The ones with a higher threshold are what we call 'Extroverts' and then theres the ones with low threshold, 'Intoverts'. Most of us need to understand, that no one can love you and care for you more than yourself. 

Fake smiles, Fake compliments, Judgemental people, and the most annoying part? People acting like they actually care about you.

Now,this is not always the case. I've met genuine people too but its those days when my threshold has been crossed that I tend to snap at these people too. 

But you cant avoid human company and become an absolute recluse. The moment you learn to blend in is when you have finally become an adult.